Insomnia

I don't think I slept at all last night.  I tossed and turned and stared at the wall for hours.  I finally got up at 2 to take some Tylenol for the headache I had going on.  I then laid back down and tried staring at the other wall for a while.  I actually feel pretty good today considering I've gotten maybe an hour or two of sleep.  Sometimes these bouts of sleeplessness hit me and there is not much that I can do about it but hope that by tonight I'm exhausted enough to crash.  I had one the other week and now again last night so maybe this is my new normal, one night a week where I don't close my eyes.  

I've managed to take almost all of my pills for the last two days.  I have one that is so hard to swallow and it's so horrible tasting if it starts to dissolve in your mouth that I've left it off my taking.  I have to take two of them as well so that is even worse.  I'm not sure the pills are doing anything anyways.  I mean I know the Vivance definitely does but I'm not sure how mood adjusting the others are.  I guess the proof is that I don't want to live in a cave by myself if I'm actually taking them.  

Hubs decided to replace the patio slabs yesterday so off we went to Lowe's as they were one of the only places that had the size of slab we needed in stock at a reasonable price.  It took a couple of trips to get them all since we don't have a big truck but they are all here and about half of them are down right now.  They do look better than the cracked and disintegrating old ones we had there.  Plus it'll be better for putting the girls pool on these nice smooth ones.  

Not too much else is new today.  I have three meetings to attend and then still catching up on emails and finishing a few things off.  As long as nothing goes wild it should be a good day for work too.

Enjoy your day!

A New Work Week

It was back at early this morning for work.  I had a call at 8:30 and while it wasn't long of difficult it was still a reason to make sure I was at my computer ready and awake after my holidays last week.  On the lucky side it was my only meeting for the day so I can catch up on emails from my time off and work on a document that I have to prepare for the rest of the day.

Yesterday was Father's Day and it went mostly good.  Hubs enjoyed his gifts and went for a nice bike ride with Bear.  She's been having so much fun since figuring out how to work two wheels a couple of weeks ago.  We had steak and potatoes for supper and the steak wasn't the greatest but it was still okay.  Hubs and I had a fight, which is becoming more common again.  I'm just unhappy and sinking back into depression and he doesn't get that.  He's also very sensitive to how he thinks things are being said even when they are not meant that way and so goes off easily.  Having to be stuck together for the last three months hasn't made this any better.  I'm trying to be vigilant and remember to take my pills so that at least I'm somewhat stable but they are not always at the top of my priorities.  Especially when I think of how many there are and that I have to keep taking them and taking them and it just makes me not want to have them at all.  I've also been off my exercise routine and so I'm unhappy about my weight while doing nothing to fix it.  I'm just spiraling down and so I need to get it together. 

I did manage to get an appointment with my doctor last week and talk to him about my knees.  They are so bad some days that I can't even go up or down stairs without pulling myself along on the handrail.  He thinks that it's my patella being pulled due to my quads being tight but I don't agree.  My knees are shot from years of gymnastics and cheer leading and I'm quite certain need to be replaced.  For now he has given me a topical cream to help with the pain and suggested I go for physio.  I will try that and see how it is.  I have an appointment booked for Friday to see our regular physiotherapist and I'll discuss it with her further.  Maybe after she looks at them she can recommend something else or give me something more concrete to go back to the doctor with. 

There is not too much else going on today.  Kids are bored already and there is no schoolwork to threaten them with anymore.  They are currently colouring all the sidewalk blocks in the back yard a different colour with chalk to make a dance floor so hopefully that keeps them busy for a while.

It's a beautiful day outside today so I hope you get to enjoy it!

It's a Rainy Day

Today it is supposed to rain all day.  It has rained most of the night and right now it has stopped but it's still very grey and overcast.  We haven't had any rain for a week or so, this is needed for my grass and garden. 

Not too much to do today.  The library has reopened for pickups of requested items only so I've put a bunch of items on hold and they are slowly trickling in.  It does mean I have to go to the library once a day to get them and that involves making an appointment to schedule the pickups.  They have the books already checked out for you and you just need to go give them your name and they place the books on a table and you grab them.  It worked well the first time I went and I'm sure that it'll keep being fine.  There was no one in line the other day so I was there and back very quickly. 

With today being the middle of the week it's our one day of eating out.  We decided early in this that we would allow ourselves just one day and one meal a week to break up the monotony of always eating at home.  I guess we still do eat the food at home but I don't have to make it and that is really the important part. 

The other day I was busy making some doll clothes for Bear.  We made a pair of dolly panties and 4 pairs of dolly tights and a pair of dolly shorts.  I probably was only working for 2 hours to do all of them and most of that time was in the cutting and pinning the little pieces more than the sewing.  Bear has asked that we make some more stuff today so we'll see if I feel motivated to get it done.

I think I will have to put gas in the car today for the first time in over a month.  I haven't had to drive anywhere that far and so there has been no consumption at all.  It's still at almost half but gas is only getting more expensive so I may as well fill it now and not have to worry about it for another month.

I have had some good news from work in that they released the plans for going back to the office and the vast majority of us will not even think of going back until September 8th.  The way it's worded also makes it seem like there could be a chance that we still would have the option to work from home part-time even then.  I'm thrilled with this news.  I've really enjoyed working from home and it's actually been better for the company as I don't tend to take any breaks now.  When I was in the office I was conscious of having at least one coffee break and a lunch break but now I sit myself down at the computer and don't move until it's time to wrap it up for the day.  I even eat my lunch while just still working.  If there does end up being a chance to stay home for a few days a week then I am jumping all over that option.  My boss doesn't seem as excited about this as I am though so I'm hoping she won't get a say in my choices.  I guess she is not liking being home all the time or maybe it's just that she is alone there and misses the interaction.  I'd rather not have any interaction with other humans most of the time and prefer to work on things alone so this has been perfect for me.

Not much else is going on today so I think it'll be a pretty average day.  Hopefully, the kids don't get all worked up having to be inside most of the day.  That always leads to yelling and crying and not just from them.....

First Day of Holidays

Well, I'm on holiday to use up my remaining days and not have to get paid out.  They extended the deadline due to COVID and all of us being out of the office since the middle of March.  That means I had the option to take this last week and a bit instead of getting paid out.  In some ways, it's good because the taxes they take on getting paid out are crazy compared to what I would get just taking the holidays but there was no way I could have fit the time in in the original deadline of April 30th had stood.  The other side to that is that it's like bonus cash that I can put towards debt and so that is not happening. 

Not much is on the agenda for this week off.  I have a book that the library says I can schedule a pickup for.  That is new as the library is still not open and they haven't been doing this before.  I guess the employees have gone back to work but they are not allowing the public in a normal way as before.  The girls are in their last week of schoolwork being sent home from school so I'll be making sure they do that work as well.  They are excited to almost be done but I'm sad it's over.  I've enjoyed teaching them, even though there have been days where it's a struggle to get them to stay focused. 

I'm going to be struggling to not be all over my work email this week.  I can't seem to let go and just let everyone else deal with things.  I know that I should learn to be less involved but this project is my baby and I must know everything that goes on :)  I'm hoping that there just won't be many emails and then I won't feel like I'm missing things.  I also am waiting to see if there is any fallback from the email I sent late on Friday that expressed my frustration with some things.  It was sent to a few people and then I was told that maybe I should have been more careful in case it ended up being forwarded and then I might look bad.  I didn't think about that part, I just went with the fact that I told the people I thought could do something about it and hope they keep the email internal while sharing the sentiment expressed. 

I should also spend some time this week clearing more things out.  I got a good start the other week and sold some stuff on Kijiji.  It's always a boost to do more when things go out of the house.  Even if I don't sell them, just to donate them to the thrift store and get them out of the way is good too.  I never do garage sales because I hate the haggling and they are so much work and you still need to haul it all away at the end anyways.  I know you can make some money but unless you have some big-ticket items it's not worth it to me.  Besides even if I wanted to, there are no garage sales allowed right now, banned by the city.

It's a nice day today so maybe I'll do some reading outside while the girls play and then I can say I spent time out of the house and off the computer.