It Starts Today

 Today is the first of my appointments with the Bariatric program and it's a long one.  They have said to block off three hours for the virtual class.  They didn't give much information about what will be covered in the course, just that it's a bariatric basics course and like everything else in the program it's mandatory.

I'm excited but also a little nervous as I don't know what to expect.  I'm also feeling the nerves from beginning this process to hopefully make myself a better person and change the multiple habits that have got me to where I am today.

We'll see how things go today and fingers crossed it's a good experience for me to start things off.

The Journey Begins

 So I've been waiting for something for the last two and a half years and today I finally got the call.  

In Saskatchewan, if you have a valid health card and a recommendation from your primary doctor, you are eligible for bariatric surgery.  As someone who has been overweight for years and tried many different things to combat this, I'm feeling both relieved and terrified at the prospect and the work ahead of me.  

I am technically classified as morbidly obese according to the BMI scale.  It's hard to know as I don't think of myself as that big but then I see a picture and I'm horrified.  I'm not expecting any magic with the surgery but with the appropriate mindset and goals I should be able to learn the new way of living that will become my normal after this.  The expectation is that you lose 35-40% of your body weight from the surgery.  While that is amazing and I'll definitely take that, I still want to be down more than that as a total goal.  I want to feel like me again.  It's not so much that I jus want to be thin but I want to be able to go upstairs carrying a laundry basket and not be out of breath.  I want to say yes to playing with my girls and not just veg on the couch because I'm too tired or too out of shape to deal with it.  I want to be the fun and outgoing person I was once that I've lost due to not wanting to put myself out there as a big person.  

So, I'll do my best to keep you updated as I start and work through this journey.  My first step is a Bariatric Basics virtual class on June 30th.  

Let the fun begin!