Week of 31st October

 Sunday was Halloween and it was a good day.  I started the day as regular and got the grocery list all made out.  Bear and I went for groceries and we also got her a pair of winter boots so that's one less thing to worry about before the snow falls.  We then grabbed some lunch and headed home.  The girls and I had been in costume since the morning so we were all ready to go for anything that came up.  Hubs was watching his football game and then we were off to a friends house for a quick visit.  That time was good and it was nice to catch up.  We then came home, had a quick taco supper and were out the door for some trick or treating.  We have a nice loop that we go on and it takes us about an hour and a half to get around it and all the way home.  Works out well and we don't have to do too much back and forth.  Hubs had hockey last night so we had a few minutes between him leaving and us getting home but I don't think we missed too many kids.  We only got 26 in total and some of my coworkers ran out of candy after 250 so it must just be our area that has no one out.  Both girls got a tonne of candy and will be eating it for weeks.  I'm happy with the left overs and the extra I bought just in case we had a crazy year.

 

I thought I'd play along with some answers for once and not have to think too hard to come up with things to write.

1. Is Halloween a big deal in your neighborhood? Was it something you celebrated as a child? With your own children? Do you like candy corn? 

It's not such a big deal on our little street but there is lots going on once you cross the road to the other streets.  I always celebrated (and still do), it's great to be something else for a little while.  My children love Halloween and get their costumes chosen early and wear them in the preceding weeks.  I do like candy corn but only in small does and only since I've become an adult.  I hated it as a child.

2. Are you a scaredy cat? About what? 

I'm not too afraid of things but I don't like spiders or bugs really.  Too many legs creep me out.

3. Last time you were somewhere that should have been busy but felt like a 'ghost town'? 

I think most stores during the beginning of COVID were like that.  It was difficult to get used to but now it's not bog deal.

4. Do you like chili and if so how do you like it? Beans or no beans? Meat or no meat? Beef or chicken? Spice or no spice? Favorite toppings? 

I do like chili and would prefer only brown beans in it, not ay other kind.  It has to have beef though or it's not chili.  I like a little heat to it but not burn your mouth crazy hot.  I top mine with sour cream and shredded cheese.

5. Would you describe yourself as a night owl? What time of night qualifies? What are you doing while everyone else is asleep? Do you then 'sleep in'? Define 'sleeping in'. 

I am not a night owl, I'm in bed and asleep by 10:30 almost always.  I get to sleep in on the weekends when the girls let me so I get to snooze till 9 or so.  

6. Insert your own random thought here. 

Work has been crazy  this last week and I'm thinking I'm getting there myself.

Wednesday I again had a busy day.  There are so many projects on the go and meetings to attend and my emails are right out of control and I'm just spinning it seems.  Beyond all the work issues and keeping things calm on the surface, I also had a dentist appointment.  It went well, my teeth were not too bad and while I've got to go back for a filling it's not the end of the world.  I do need a crown though and that had to be preauthorized so I'll see what the insurance company says about that in a few weeks.  It was another day of not getting to the gym.  Hubs went to wash the car which meant by the time he got home it was too late.  I just wish I could control my eating more.  I know I'm doing it out of boredom instead of hunger and it's frustrating that I'm not going to lose much weight if I keep eating as I do.  I need to get everything under control and I'm just not there in any part of my life right now so I feel like I'm drowning.

Friday I was in the office for most of the day.  I had to have a computer switch out and there were a few other tasks that required me to actually be in there so that was good.  Hubs had a half day off so we were able to go for lunch and that was nice.  It's been a while since we got to have those kind of day dates and just hang out with each other.  In the evening we had swimming lessons and while I'm happy for the girls to be in them, I could use the time to read or do emails or anything else.  Hubs had hockey and I spent the night on my normal task of trying to get my emails under control from the week. I was unsuccessful in that and gave up with just under 200 in my inbox.  

Week Of 17 October 2021

 Sunday was a bit of a regular day.  We had the usual pancake breakfast and then Bear and I went out to get groceries.  We tried to get some McD's on the way home to fill up the hollow legs of Bear but they are closed for renovations so we jumped across the street to BK.  Once we got home I helped the Hubs set up the cords for the cars for winter and then I took myself off to the gym for the first time.  I was quite nervous about it but got through it and spent 45 minutes on the treadmill.  I'll slowly add in other equipment but for now I'm happy to just walk and think about things.  Hubs had hockey in the evening so I got the girls to bed and watched some TV while packing my bags for the trip tomorrow.  I'm nervous about that too but trying to get everything in order to make it happen.

Wednesday was a day of travel and getting things set to rights.  We started the day in Winnipeg, travelled to Marquette, and then back to Winnipeg for the flight home.  It was good to get out and see the stores.  I miss that part of my job and enjoy being in the sites and knowing that something that I did was helpful to them.  There wasn't a lot of that on this trip as I don't know the system very well so I stayed in the background but I was able to help out a little a couple of times and still managed to not completely feel like a useless tit.  Getting home was good, the girls were happy to see me and I managed to have a shower and feel somewhat normal.  I'm tired though and it was an early night and a mostly restful sleep.

Thursday was an okay day.  I was still tired from my trip but managed to get up and get the girls out the door to school with lunches and backpacks.  I had a busy day at work, just trying to catch up and keep up with everything new that was coming in.  In the evening Hubs was watching the football game on TV and I took myself off to the gym for a walk.  Hubs is slightly concerned about the area around the gym being not the greatest but I go early enough in the evening that it's fine and also there are lots of people about.  Once I got home I helped get the kids to bed and then I had my regularly scheduled bath night.  I started watching a documentary about Cold Play and realized that I'm not doing what I want to do with my life but I'm stuck in it now and this is how it is.  There were a few tears but as long as I don't think about it too hard I'm fine.  After bath was some quick reading in bed and then off to dreamland for me.  

Week of 10 October 2021

 Well, I tried to write a few days this week already and it's not working out for me lol.

Monday was a day to do nothing.  I went out in the morning to grab some breakfast from Timmy's and then in the evening I ran out to get Hubs a coffee from Starbuck's and that was the extent of me leaving the house.  The kids managed to not hate each other all day and played all sorts of things with a fort built in the middle of the living room.  Since we had our turkey on Saturday there was no big mess to clean up and Hubs had a nap, while I did some cleaning of the sewing room.  I would really love to be able to get back to doing some crafting but I just find it easier to veg on the couch in the evenings than go sit alone in the basement.  I've also been thinking that I need to get a lamp for the living room so that I can do some needlework while watching TV.  That would be a good compromise and I've got many projects that can be done.  Marshmallow slept almost all day after a few good rips around in the morning. Must be a good life to be a cat, in a house, all warm and full of food with multiple sleeping places and things to do.

Tuesday was the first day of my holidays and yet I spent time working.  This manager gig doesn't really give you time off unless you're out of the country.  Hubs was also home and he ran a bunch of errands in the morning.  In the early afternoon, I had a doctor's appointment to see if the blood pressure pills are working and it turns out they are not....boooo.  So we've upped my dose and we'll see if that makes a difference.  I also got the results of my ultrasound and I have a hemorrhagic cyst.  Apparently, they are fairly common and not of concern but since it is giving me pain I'm being referred to a gynecologist to follow up and make sure that's all that's going on.  I was warned that it's a long wait to see one though so maybe by next year :).  The girls had skating lessons and those went well again.  Bug is almost gliding and Bear is a little behind but still picking it up good.  I started to look into joining a gym but haven't pulled the plug yet on one.  There is one quite close to the house and it's one of the cheaper ones so maybe there but Hubs thinks I should look at other amenities that are offered before I make a choice.  So we'll have to see.  

Wednesday I ran out to Walmart first thing in the morning and picked up a few things I wanted.  I was actually looking for a new bedside lamp as mine had given up and was able to find one that was suitable and not way too much money.  I picked up a couple of other things as well, like a magazine and some yarn to make a couple of tuques.  Even though I'm on holiday I had to jump on a call with my team yesterday to deal with some issues.  I also got one more dresser top cleared off and neat so the one side of the bedroom looks great.  It's so odd that they are clear though that every time I walk in the room I get startled that the space is there.  Now just to keep them that way.  Parent Council meeting happened in the evening and I now am the Treasurer.  Not really sure what that means I have to do but I volunteered as no one else was and I can't just hang out and do nothing if I've made this commitment. The rest of the evening I just hung out with Hubs and had a shower before bed.  I've still got the window cracked a little in the bedroom and it's chilly to start but then I get all snuggled in and things are great.  It was raining though and there should be snow in the morning so it won't stay open too much longer.

 

Week of June 27

 Sunday was a pretty quiet day.  We had the normal grocery shopping day and that went well.  Later in the day, we spent time watching some TV and just hanging out.  It was a pretty boring day actually.  In the evening Hubs had his first hockey game since they've opened up the rules and they can play again. I enjoyed watching some of my TV shows and got to bed pretty early.

Monday was my second day of holiday and it was a hot one!  I managed to sleep in a little but once up I filled the pool and got that ready for the girls as I knew they would be in there at some point.  We also gathered up all our stuff and took it to Value Village.  We did a little bit of shopping while we were there and I got a dress and a couple of pairs of work pants since it seems like I'll be in the office more than I planned now that I've switched jobs.  Once we got home we had a quick lunch and then the girls did hit the pool up.  I watched some TV while they splashed and then in the late afternoon I had a going-away chat with the person I'm replacing.  The evening was spent hanging out with Hubs while he watched his team lose the first game of the finals. We then finished off the last of a TV show and were off to bed.

Tuesday was another hot day!  I actually spent some time in the pool and that is not something I do because the water is never warm enough for me.  Though the first time I was in there the kids kicked me out so they could play and the second time I got out on my own because the kids were splashing.  We also went to get a gift card for one of the guys' Hubs plays hockey with as he's getting married in a week and the team bought him that for a gift.  Beyond that, we just hung out at home and watched some TV and the kids managed to not get on each other's nerves for once.  In the afternoon there was another going away party for the man I'm replacing with a quiz and everything so that was fun.  After supper was some time with Hubs and the DVR and then off to bed.

Wednesday was the day we had a few things to do.  In the morning the girls had an optometrist appointment.  As expected both of them needed glasses and so we picked out the pairs for them and they should be ready next week.  They are very excited and happy but I expect that to last only a little while.  We grabbed some Slurpees and sushi on the way home and had a nice lunch.  Then shortly after we arrived back our CSA showed up.  As expected there as well we got lots of salad fixings for so early in the season.  We had a salad with our supper last night and that was good.  I didn't get in the pool as the water was much too cold for me but the girls played in there off and on for the afternoon.  In the evening I had a chat in person with my boss as we exchanged some items.  Then it was on to Loki.   I've decided that a group of Loki's is called a mischief so if you hear someone saying that, let it be known I coined it first!  :)

Thursday was the hottest day of the week so far as well as being Canada Day.  There weren't any celebrations for us to go to as there are still Covid restrictions as well as all the Residential School findings that have made it not a very celebrated day this year.  I was very bored and decided that we should go to Costco, only to find out that they were closed.  We hit up Walmart instead and I didn't get any satisfaction from it but I did get new pillows for the bed, which were sorely needed.  We all spent a little time in the pool and I have some slightly pink skin to show for it.  In the evening I went for my bath and watched a few shows on the streaming services then it was off to bed to test the new pillows out!

Friday was the hottest day of the week at 41 degrees.  It was also the only day of the week that I had to work.  The kids kept themselves busy indoors most of the day but did get some pool time in the late afternoon.  Work was very slow as I think 95% of the company took yesterday off.  I had one phone call and no meetings and managed to get my emails down to a reasonable number to start my new job on Monday.  I have also cleaned out my calendar from all the meetings I no longer need to attend and since I' didn't receive any forwards from the outgoing person, it looks like I will have all sorts of time to actually work......hahahahahaha.......not likely.  Bear painted my toes and fingers for me so I have a lovely shade of pink on both that is very summery and I like it.  Hubs was disappointed yet again by his hockey team and I'm just glad that it looks like there will only be one more game this season so we can stop watching it.  We did manage to watch one episode of a DVR'd show last night so at least a tiny reduction in the amount recorded.  There was a massive thunderstorm overnight that woke me up and shook the house with its booms so that was lovely to cool things down but I think it's also going to make things muggy tomorrow!

Week of June 20

 Wednesday was my last day with the outgoing manager for our turnover sessions.  I think we got most of what we needed to be talked about and I'm confident that whatever we missed I have the support of the rest of the team and my new manager to get through.  It will still be a huge adjustment but I'm glad to get into it and get my hands dirty.  I'm not going to lie....I'm also excited to get my own office with a window and be able to decorate and put my name tag up.  I've got a cubicle now but all that stuff will have to find a new home in the office.  It will be nice to have a place to hang a coat or stuff my bag or anything else.  The girls brought all their school stuff home as the last day of school is tomorrow.  It's a sad day as it means they are getting older but they are happy and excited for all the stuff that happens in the month of July.

Thursday was a good day.  Work was not too busy and some things got canceled so it was lighter than it was supposed to be.  In the afternoon, I picked up the girls from school and we did a quick run to the office to grab a surprise bag for the re-go live of the project I'm working in.  It was a cooler bag filled with treats so that was lovely and then we had a little kick-off party to end the day.  We went out for supper to celebrate the last day of school.  It was delicious and everyone was super full by the time we were finished.  Then we came home and there was a virtual magician show that was put on by work, so we watched that and the girls were enthralled.  We did a trick that worked that was crazy and it was great. I thought it was fun and I  know the girls had a good time too.

Friday I had the day off as the first day of holidays for a week.  The main thing we did was clean and rearrange Bear's room.  There was a lot of stuff to move and clean out before we could rearrange things but we got it done and Bear is thrilled with the new layout.  We got rid of a box of stuff and a bag of garbage so that was a good thing.  We also ran out to the dollar store to get a few baskets that we needed to corral some of the things and make a home for them on shelves and such.  We didn't tackle the closet yet but we have more days of holidays to get to that.  We will also do Bug's room sometime in the next week as well.  Beyond that, it was just a warm day where we had a wiener roast for supper as the meal I made failed horribly.  The kids were happy to have that so it ended up being a win.

Week of June 13

 Sunday was the beginning of a few days of hot weather again for us here.  After the whole family went to get groceries in morning, everyone besides me jumped in the pool for most of the afternoon.  I was finishing up some laundry and trying desperately to get a few more hours of DVR'd programs off the TV.  Beyond that there was not too much happening at all.  I made supper and was the only one who liked it, so that was a fail.  I've been regularly taking my pills for a week now and things have been good.  I'm mostly stable with my emotions and the apatite suppressant one has been working as well.  I've also begun tracking my calories again with Lose It and managed to be under my allotted for the week, even with a lunch out today.  Half of it is the pills making me not hungry and half of it is the act of having to enter it into the app and not wanting to do that.  I guess whatever works to keep me from stuffing my head.  I managed to lose 2 pounds last week so that is good and a start in the right direction.

Tuesday was a day full of emotions.  My announcement as the new Manager went public and there were many congratulations offered up as well as nice things being said about me.  I got a little choked up a few times hearing those things as I know I'm a good worker but it's not always said out loud and so to hear it a few times over the course of a few hours was powerful.  My new team seems to be happy to have me join them, I heard from the vast majority of them, with only a few outliers, one of which was a surprising lack of communication as I thought that person and I were on good terms.  Even one of the people I beat out for the job was gracious and their congratulations felt sincere.  I haven't done much else for the last few days as it's be very hot here and there were thunderstorms with hail.  They were over very quickly though and the hail was small so no damage at our house.  I watched the first episode of the new season of Top Gear last night and it was very lovely.  I like the current lineup of presenters and I think the BBC has found a group that plays well off each other and doesn't take themselves too seriously, which makes for enjoyable viewing.  

Thursday was another day where I went into the office for a few hours so that I could learn and gain some insight into the job I will be going into.  We discussed personnel today and I got to know a little about all the staff that will soon be mine.  After that I was at home and finishing up the day.  I was so tired though that I had to miss a meeting and took a nap instead as I couldn't keep my eyes open.  I'd had a few bad nights with Marshmallow due to the kids coming in and waking her up so I was exhausted.  We also ended up signing up for getting a home security system.  The neighbourhood has been hit with many issues lately so it just seemed prudent.  Hubs wasn't sure but in the end we decided it was for the best and since he doesn't have to be here for any of it, he's fine.  After all that I had my bath and watched a few shows on Netflix.  I was then off to bed and didn't last too long before the sleep came and took me off to dreamland.

Week of 6 June

 Sunday was just a normal day for us here.  I made the grocery list and Bear and I went shopping.  We then stopped off at the garden centre and picked up a few flowers for the front of the house.  We didn't get them planted as it started to rain but I'm hopeful that we can get them in tomorrow or the day after.  As part of our normal routine we grab a lunch out, just the two of us that are on the grocery trip.  Bug and Hubs had plans to celebrate the end of swimming lessons so they were heading out for lunch as well and we ended up at the same place.  We all ate together and had a lovely meal that kept us stuffed.  We didn't eat supper until 6, which is very late for us.  About 4pm I ended up with a massive pain in my head.  It came on suddenly and laid me out for almost an hour.  I was actually so worried that I ended up chatting with an RN online to see what was going on.  It was decided that it was probably a migraine but it was definitely in a new spot for any one that I've experienced before.  After taking a few assorted pain killers I felt better but it was a long evening.  I had planned to watch the Juno's but Hubs wanted to watch them as well and he ended up booking a time to talk with his friend that is in the hospital at the same time so I've got them recorded to watch another night.  I ended the night reading some Reader's Digest magazines as I've got a backlog and then off to dreamland.

Monday was back to work for me but a day off for the children.  There was some drama as they did silly things like run into trees with their faces and get kites stuck in trees but overall it was a good day for them.  I had my second interview for the job that I applied for and I think it went okay.  Now it's just a waiting game to see if I got the job or not.  I know there are three other applicants so a one in four chance is not too bad.  We went and got ice cream as a relief that it was over.  Supper was a crockpot meal so there was no prep and I was able to relax and only monitor incoming chats for the last half hour.  Beyond that, we planted out the flowers that we got for the walkway and the girls helped.  Hubs and I finished a biography and then I had a shower and went to bed.  I got the same pain in my head as I was laying there and ended up with a headache all night.  It was not great.

Wednesday was a good day overall.  I was really engaged in work and felt like I got a lot accomplished as well as participating more than I sometimes do in a particular project.  Right at the end of the day, we learned that it seems like something is broken with the system but we don't have that for sure yet.  I also remembered to take my pills and of course, they helped with all the emotions and the eating but I ended up taking them too late in the day and I didn't sleep very well at all.  I know better but I think a little less sleep is not as important as getting the medication back into my system.  In the evening we watched the new show Loki.  I thought it was very good.  I'm a huge Tom Hiddleston fan and Loki is a great character that allows him to play all sorts of emotions as well as being so cheeky.  When he gives that little wink, I think the whole Hiddles Army melts as one.

Friday was supposed to be the day that a decision was made on the job that I applied for but near the end of the day, I received a call letting me know that the decision had been pushed out till probably Tuesday.  While it's nice to know that I'm still in the running, I would just like to have a yes or no at this point so I can decide what my next plans are going to be and stop worrying over what is going to happen.  Beyond that the day was good and I managed to get most of my work done.  In the evening Hubs and I watched a few episodes of Clarkson's Farm on Prime Video and it's so entertaining.  Jeremy is one of my favourite people anyways and seeing him in these situations that are outside of his comfort zones is great.  

Week of May 30th

 Monday was the start of a warm week.  It was not too hot yet but it was forecast to come.  I didn't have to busy of a day work-wise but I did have an interview for a job I applied for.  It went okay I think, I managed to answer all the questions that were asked of me in an intelligent manner. Now I have to wait to find out if I get another interview or not and continue with the process.  I should know something by Wednesday or Thursday of this week to that effect.  Not too much else happened.  At bedtime, Bear had a really bad headache but we were able to get it under control with some Tylenol and a cold pack.  I got to bed not too much later and had a good night's sleep with only one interruption from Marshmallow.

Tuesday was a warm day!  I decided that since it was so lovely out that I would take myself outside and work from there.  I got my setup all ready and parked myself under the umbrella and really enjoyed myself.  I even waded in the pool a little but it was freezing!  I don't know how the kids handle it.  What I forgot from last year though, is that while the umbrella provides shade, it doesn't stop the rays and I have a sunburn despite not actually being in any sun for the whole day.  Oops.  Bear helped me make supper and we had a nice time being together while Hubs and Bug were at swimming lessons.  It was the last one of the sessions so we get to have our Tuesdays back to ourselves for now.  I'm sure something else will come up though.  In the evening we watched Mare of Easttown and it's not for me.  It's just so depressing!  By expressing that to Hubs led to a fight though so I went to bed quite upset.  

Wednesday was even warmer than Tuesday.  I spent very little time outside but we did go grab an ice cream after supper.  The workday was good, I didn't feel too overwhelmed at all and I did get through some emails.  It's still not making a huge dent in them though as they keep on coming.  One of the ones that came through was a good one though.  I've been booked for my second interview for the job I applied for.  I'm hoping it will go well and I'll brush up on the core competencies for the job because there will be questions on them for sure at this point.  I had another nausea episode after supper.  They seem to come in clusters of about a week then they stop for a long time before starting again.  I'm still averaging 3 a month though.  Beyond that, there was nothing too exciting that happened so I guess it was a good day.

Friday was a very boring day.  Work was okay, there was nothing exciting that happened and it was just a regular day.  There were meetings all day but none of them were crazy.  I was quite tired all day though and as soon as Hubs came home and I had reheated the pizza from the day before for the kids, \i went for a nap.  I managed to sleep until the kid's bedtime.  The rest of the evening I watched TV by myself as Hubs mowed the lawn, then went for a float in the pool.  It was much too cold for me to join him so I took myself off to bed.

Week of 23 May

 Monday was a holiday here and it rained all day.  I had to run out to deliver Avon but beyond that we just stayed at home and watched TV, napped, and read.  The girls played outside a bunch and got soaking wet and cold and had a ball.  I had got the treadmill all cleared off the day before so after supper I hopped on and walked my old usual of 30 minutes.  I'll be real and say it was a struggle.  I was very sweaty and tired and I wanted to quit many times but I held out and made the whole time.  The rest of the evening we watched a few of our DVR'd shows and then I had a hot shower and took myself to bed.  I did a bit of journaling and then was off to sleep once Marshmallow calmed down and stopped investigating everything she could get to.

Tuesday was back to work and it was a busy day.  I was booked for almost the whole day into meetings and trainings and it was hectic.  I also have decided to begin a basic yoga program and got that into my day while no one was home.  It went okay and it's only 20 minutes out of my day so I grab it into my lunch break.  I also managed to get the treadmill walking in so that was good, even if it wasn't any easier to get through.  I did have a bad day with purging though.  It was such that most of what I ate was brought back up.  In the evening Hubs and I watched another show and them it was off to bed where thankfully Marshmallow was well behaved and I got a good sleep.

Wednesday I woke up with a headache.  Thankfully it went away pretty quickly but I did have to take a pill for it.  My day was not as busy as they had been and  I managed to feel like I got plenty of emails handled and filed and I felt good about it.  Late in the work day I got a call about having an interview with HR about the job I applied for so that was a nice surprise.  Now I have a few days to stew over that until it happens and hopefully I get to the next step in the process.  We then went out for supper as Hubs was feeling like a treat.  I ate too much but it was very good.  I managed to get my yoga in but I didn't get on the treadmill after that big meal.  We watched a show, I had a shower, and we were off to bed.

Thursday was a good day.  I didn't do much beyond work but I ordered myself a frozen hot chocolate and an Italian soda and it was a good thing.  I had a steady day with work but at no point did I get too overwhelmed, so that was good.  I did my yoga at lunch again and tried to use the treadmill but it keeps glitching out and I got frustrated and gave up half way through.  I then had a bath, with popcorn and some tablet time and crawled into bed to do some journaling before sleeping.

Week of May 16th

 Sunday was supposed to be the first hot day of this year and it did get warm but not as hot as they expected.  That didn't stop the girls from getting in the pool though.  Hubs  also cleaned a bunch of the windows and screens as well. I basically slept all day.  I was so tired and I'm also feeling down so the only thing that I wanted to do at all was sleep.  I didn't even put one foot outdoors.  We had a roast for supper and it was crap.  The meat wasn't very good and the veg we cooked with it was half hard and half cooked.  It was a fail all the way around.  In the evening Hubs and I watched some of our recorded shows and then I was in bed by 10 with a face mask on.  

Wednesday was a bit of a stressful day.  I had regular work and then right at the end of the day I had a meeting with some higher level people to discuss my applying for a new position within the company.  It meant that I got to think about that "informal off the record" meeting all day.  It ended up going quite well I think but of course they can't tell me anything about the job I applied for beyond that I am one of three so far that have applied.  The posting is open for another week yet so there could be plenty of other choices for them to sort through.  I ended the evening by having a bath off regular night and then was in bed and asleep before 10PM.

Week of May 9

 Well I've not had any time to get to this space so far this week so it's going to be a rather short weeks worth of recalling.  The most exciting thing that has happened though is that due to a possible exposure to Covid, we are all self isolating for 14 days.  Many more of those days to come yet as we are still near the beginning of our time.

Wednesday I had a very busy working day, which has been the norm this week.  In addition to having been swamped at work I'm also wrangling the work of the two kiddos as they have to work from home and online.  It's meant that I have to keep track of who is doing what and then help them if they need it and submit all their work for them.  I know that Hubs could help out with that part but by the time I get him up to speed on what to do and how to get into things it's not worth it.  He is able to help with the actual work though, which is nice.  Hubs also decided that we should have pizza for supper, so that was the order of the day.  

Week Of 2 May 2021

Sunday started off as a normal day.  I've found that since I stopped watching videos/Netflix/Prime until 11pm I wake up early and refreshed for my day, even if I didn't sleep all that well or was up because of kids or kitten issues.  I'm awake before my alarm and ready to go for the day, not even wanting a nap in the afternoon, when before I was struggling to turn off the alarm and not go back to sleep.  I'm guessing it must have been the blue light because there are still days I stay up reading until almost that time but don't have the same issues.  Once I was up I got my grocery list all sorted out and ready.  I then had a shower, breakfast, and grabbed a kid for the trip.  This week it was Bug and that meant that I knew where we would have our lunch out.  After we got home from that I mentioned to Hubs that I was till having pain in my abdomen that was making me very uncomfortable.  He told me to go to the doctor and since it had been two days of pain I decided to listen to him.  I just went to the mediclinic and while I ended up waiting for about an hour (mostly because they forgot about me) I did get in with no issues.  After having to have my urine analyzed to rule out an infection there the doctor felt my tummy and based off that he gave me some medication to stop stomach muscle contractions and requested I get an urgent ultrasound.  Of course there are no ultrasound places open on the weekend so they said they would call me in the morning to let me know where and when to go.  Evening was pretty chill and I got to bed early while not feeling too badly.  I've opened the window in the bedroom for the season so it was delightfully cool in there and Marshmallow snuggled in close.

Monday was back to work and thankfully not too many meetings to start the week.  I was also awaiting the phone call to let me know where and when to get my ultrasound, which came at about 8:45am.  They were able to book me in for 2:30pm and I just needed to stop eating and have a full bladder.  The appointment itself was good but of course they never tell you anything.  They did say that the results would be available to the doctor within 24 hours but as of yet I haven't heard anything.  Bear was feeling a little down so we went for a drive and got a tea and had a nice chat.  The evening was boring, Hubs was watching the hockey game so I read for a bit and then we watched a show till bedtime.

Tuesday was another regular day until we got a notification that the presumptive case that had been identified in Bear's class was actually confirmed positive and was a VoC case.  They recommended that everyone in the class get tested and families could also get tested at the same time. So instead of waiting in line, we booked an appointment and got in at 6:30pm.  Now we are just hoping to not get a call because that would mean someone was positive and that would not be fun.  I also got the call from the doctor that said all my tests were normal so there is still no plan or idea of what is causing my abdominal pain.  I booked a phone consultation with my family doctor to see what he says.  Hubs and I didn't have a very good day yesterday and we both were angry and short tempered and I wasn't in a mood to deal with him at all. 

Wednesday and I'm finding my patience and good will are in short supply.  I don't want to work and I don't want to be around humans.  Work is not stupid right now but there is a lot of moving parts and I'm still feeling that I'm not getting the support I need from my boss.  Home life is fine, Bear is getting bored of being home all day but we are keeping her caught up on her schoolwork as it comes in and she has two virtual sessions a day.  Last night was my parent council meeting and that was good.  I got to get off my chest how I felt about the notification we received about Bear having to stay home and there were plans made for all the upcoming things that the school needs.  Beyond that I went to bed early and slept well until Bear joined me.

Week of 25 April

 Thursday was a crazy day at work.  I had meetings all day with very little breaks between them and some of them were very frustrating.  I'm also feeling very left alone by my boss and that I need to be the one making all the decisions and going to all the meetings and planning out the things that are going on.  In the evening it was bath night and I watched a fun and silly movie called Holidate.  It was not anything that I needed to concentrate on but it was light and fluffy and I enjoyed it.  It was a Christmas movie but I've just got around to it.  Besides that there was really nothing going on.  Being motivated to get everything done and focus has been the biggest issue and I have struggled anytime there is an out to not take it and say screw the rest!

Week Of 18 April

 Well I've missed a few days due to not really being on the computer or simply having way too much going on but I'm back to continue this week as it is.

Monday was okay.  I wasn't really feeling work so maybe was a little less motivated then I should have been but I got through all the important things and while I might have left some stuff until tomorrow I don't feel to bad about it.  I managed to read a fair bit while Hubs was watching the hockey game and that was nice.  I've gotten out of the habit of reading as much as I'd like to, so this has been a good thing to get back into. I'm currently reading a biography of Prince Harry and it's good.  It is slightly skewed to the positive but it doesn't gloss over all the things that he did in his youth that were not the best choices.  I had a shower and was asleep by 10:30.

Tuesday felt like a good day.  All my meetings were in the morning so I had the whole afternoon to get things done or just veg, whichever happened.  I did have to go pick up Bear from school again as she had a sore throat.  I'm starting to think that she's using it to get out of school because something is going on there but she says not.  It's just convenient that whatever her ailment is clears up pretty quick once she gets home.  Bug had swimming lessons and Hubs went with her.  They had a good time and from what I hear Bug is getting really good at what she needs to do.  In the evening Hubs and I watched some of our DVR'd shows and called it a night pretty early.  

Thursday was a busy day.  

Week Of April 11

 Sunday was a pretty lazy day.  No one wanted to come with me for groceries, so I was in and out in under an hour and back home.  I was slightly disappointed to not have a reason to grab a lunch out as is part of the time we spend together when the girls come with me but we had hot dogs at home and they were a tasty treat.  Beyond that I just lazed about and wanted to nap but couldn't because Hubs went down for one.  Jerk :)  

Monday was back to work for me and it was busy.  I had five and a half hours of meetings and a stack of emails and suffice to say not much actual work got done.  I did decide though that I was going to start taking a walk around the block, just to get out of my chair and out of the house for a few minutes.  It was brisk out but I did it and felt better for it.  I'm trying to find ways to be healthier as well as get a routine for working from home that  I can continue.  Just sitting on my butt staring at my computer is not going to do me any favours.  Marshmallow was full of piss and vinegar last night.  She was getting into everything and being a maniac for a good two hours.  While it was fun to watch her zip about, having to clean up my spilled drink was not.  

Tuesday was another crazy day at work.  I'm absolutely swamped and I don't know how to catch up.  I think I need to talk to my boss and ask her for more help as I don't even know where to start.  I could work much longer than my scheduled time and still be behind.  Bug had swimming lessons start again.  They start before I'm off work so Hubs gets to go with her.  Someone has to be in the pool at the same time as her for this one year yet.  I'm happy, as I don't really want to get into the pool, it's always cold!  

Wednesday I felt a little better and was able to get through some of the things I need to do at work.  I still have more work to get done but at least my emails are under control.  I got a message yesterday afternoon that I had to go pick up Bear from school as she'd had a headache for a while and it wasn't getting better.  Just because of the rules with COVID it required her to come home but thankfully she didn't have to stay away for two days.  I had a conversation with the principal as I picked her up and as long as she was feeling better by supper then they felt it was okay to come back the next day.  We did find out later when I told her that she was going back to school that one of her classmates has been pulling her hair and grabbing her hard enough to hurt her so she didn't want to go back.  I had a quick chat with the teacher and she was going to have a conversation with the class to remind them what was appropriate touching behaviour.  I also had a nap after supper and woke up with a headache so that sucked.  Hubs did a quick cleanup of the basement since there was a furnace tech coming on Thursday to clean and maintenance the furnace.  There was nothing wrong with it besides it being quite loud but we felt that it should be checked just to keep it in good condition.

Thursday seemed to go by quickly.  The furnace guy came and that went well.  He said there were no issues, it just needed a good cleaning, so that was nice to hear.  It is a relatively new furnace but you never know and  I'm glad that there is nothing we have to worry about at this time.  I've been starving lately.  All I want to do is eat food all the time.  It's not great for my waistline but my mouth is happy.  Later in the evening I got really, really grumpy.  I don't even have a reason for it but I wanted nothing to do with anyone.  I ended up having my bath and watching Shawn the Sheep shorts.  It did take my mind off being grumpy but I still went to bed fairly early.  Beyond that we found out they've lowered the age to 48 for vaccines so my plan for tomorrow is to get Hubs a booked spot.  Hopefully there is something available.

Week Of April 4th

 Hello All, I've decided to try something new with my blog posts as I can never seem to find the things I want to talk about so I'm going to do just one post a week and add to it every day with whatever happened the day before or interesting things that have happened by the time I write the post.  We'll see how long this lasts but I really do want to try to be more consistent and if this is a starting point then great!

Sunday was Easter Sunday and since I try my hardest not to ever shop on a holiday there was no grocery-getting.  I have spent too long in Retail to ever put a foot inside a store on a day where I think they should be closed.  I realize that my single-person protest is not going to get anything changed but it's my little way of being in solidarity with those workers who have no choice but to be there.  We had a ham and a few other regular things for supper and it was actually very tasty.  I'm not a huge ham lover, really I've come to the conclusion I only like meat a few times a week and mostly from a chicken.  The girls got some Easter baskets full of things and seemed to be quite happy with them.  There was more than just chocolate in there and that went over well.  They have been spending hours outside for the last few days playing with the neighbour kids and since they are in the same classes at school it seems like it should be okay.  They are wearing masks and as I said, being outside so I'm feeling fine with it.  Hubs and I watched some TV to round out the night and that was Easter for us.

Monday I got groceries.  Bug also had a birthday party for one of her best friends so we dropped her off at that late afternoon.  Not too much else exciting happened really.  I tried desperately to nap and that didn't work out at all.  Bear wasn't feeling all that good in the evening and so needed some extra snuggles and cuddles at bedtime.  I was quite irritated with Hubs so the evening wasn't all that good. We did manage to watch one show that we have recorded so maybe cleared 1% of the DVR.  Must work hard on that this week while I'm off.  I've very behind in all the shows and that's not good.  I also had one of my brain shifts on Monday.  We still don't know if they are a COVID response or what but that's what I'm going with since I never had them before I was positive all those months ago and they haven't gone away since.  They are slightly less intense than they started off but still bring me to a complete halt in whatever I'm doing.

Tuesday was a pretty boring day.  The girls played outside for a while, which gave me the chance to clean the bathroom.  Then we went off to the dollar store to grab a few things and stopped to get some lunch on the way home.  We spent the rest of the afternoon just hanging out and I watched some TV.  I'm hoping to get the PVR down some more so went hard on things that seemed to be taking up lots of space.  I did manage to get it down to only 86% full so that was a good start.  Nothing much else happened.  I did write a letter to a penpal so sometime this week I will need to mail that off.  I also started a beading craft that will turn into a Christmas banner once it's completed.  It's going well but I need to have plenty of space to work on it so it's a clean table kind of craft, not a watch TV kind.

Wednesday started off with my cleaning out the freezer on the top of the fridge and doing an inventory.  Oddly there was only one thing to throw out so that was good. We then took a bunch of boxes to Value Village and did some shopping there.  We got a few games to play and a few clothes for me and Bear.  Once we got home the girls played for a while and I watched more of the DVR's programs I have.  Then once Hubs came home we all played one of the games we got.  Which embarrassingly Hubs and I lost even though the game is a trivia game for grades 1-6.  Later in the evening while Hubs was watching hockey the girls and I played again and I managed to win.  It was a beautiful day out and I had the windows open letting in the fresh air for the first time this year.

Thursday we stayed home all day.  The girls and I baked two loaves of bread from scratch.  Bug wasn't really too into it until the kneading part but then she wanted in.  They are good and while it won't happen all that often, it's nice as a treat.  Later in the evening, we pulled Bear's tooth out.  It's been wiggly for a while and the one growing in had come up behind so it needed to come out.  We tried the floss and the doorknob trick but the floss wouldn't stay on her tooth so I just grabbed it with a kleenex and pulled it out.  A small amount of drama from that but it really wasn't held in there very hard.  I managed to read a couple of compilation books about Christmas, which is nice.  They are recipes and crafts and stories so it's an easy way to pass some time and get some ideas as well.  It was also my bath night.  I am low on bath products but found some older things that need to be used up, they didn't smell too strong but at least it was something besides plain water.

Friday we learned the news that Price Phillip had passed.  That's very sad and I feel for the Queen. The girls and I went to one of the malls here and played a round of mini golf.  We then did a little bit of shopping and grabbed lunch while we were there.  The rest of the day was spent at home doing very little.  I'm still working to get that DVR down and I'm happier where it is now but with having to have nights where we watch the hockey game instead of a show it never really gets down to far.  

Saturday I was up early for no reason at all besides a bad dream where a giant blue bug was sitting on my foot and it hurt.  It was not an okay thing to go through.  I went to the library to do some exchanging of books and then grabbed Hubs a coffee on the way home.  Saturday is also laundry day so we got that don as well.  Later in the evening we started watching Falcon and Winter Soldier as that is the next thing on our Marvel Saturday watching.  We finished WandaVision last week and I wasn't thrilled with the ending at all.  I realise they need to leave it open ended to further the brand but there was too much that wasn't explained or wrapped up in a good way.  

Hope you've all had a good week! 

Back to Work Monday

 Well my week off was fine but now it's back to work.  I've got a lot of things to get through and there are many things that I need to find out what is happening with and I'm slightly overwhelmed with it today.  There is also the fact that tomorrow I'm fully booked all day and my boss is off today so I am just floundering around.  It really is a bit of a crazy start to the week.

I'm also very tired and can't seem to get enough of the sleep I'm craving.  I've had naps and crashed early and am still ready to sleep at any time of the day.

I never heard back from my doctor about my bloodwork so I have to assume that everything is fine.  I did go online and look at my results but of course I don't understand what they mean and what is good or bad so I can say I saw them and that's about it.

I guess I should get myself back into work.  Have a good day everyone!

Waiting In Line

 This morning I decided to go get in line for the bloodwork that was ordered yesterday by the doctor.  There were about 17 people in line and already sitting waiting when I got there.  Thankfully it only took about 40 minutes for the whole thing to be done.  Now we just wait and see if everything is as it should be.  It was mostly just normal bloodwork but there was also some testing to see kidney function as well.  My blood pressure was high at the appointment to a level that we need to consider doing something.  So my excitement for the day will be picking and buying a blood pressure monitor.

The rest of my appointments went well.  Everything else was fine at the doctor's appointment, though we do have to wait for the Pap test results.  I'm sure those will be normal though as I had no concerns and only went because it was time.

I managed to get through my work shirts today and sorted out a bunch to go to Value Village.  Some I just didn't like anymore and some were not flattering.  My closet rod is happier already.  Next up, work pants!

Have a good day everyone!

Halfway Through My Holidays

 Today is the one day of my holidays that I have things marked on the calendar to do.  I have my semi-monthly appointment with my psychologist later this afternoon.  It's usually very quick and that's maybe good but I don't know what should be happening.  I've just started back on my pills again after a long break so we'll have to discuss that.  I've also completely stopped taking one of them as I can not swallow it any longer.  I'm sure he'll have something to say about that.  While I don't notice much of a difference between being on them or not, Hubs says he can tell when I'm off them.  I guess that means they do work but I've got to figure out how to live the rest of my life with them or find a way to be normal without them.

I also have my regular checkup with my doctor today.  I wouldn't have normally gone in as we're still in a pandemic but I got my letter stating that I was due for a Pap test as it has been three years.  I decided that making sure that everything is as it's supposed to be is worth the hassle of having to get all this done while masked and I'm sure he'll have further PPE on.  I have a few other minor concerns to mention but nothing that I'm actually too worried about.  I'm going to mention my probably broken finger that they can't fix now, my knee pain, and the difference in texture I feel between my breasts.  Hubs thinks I should mention my weight as well but I'm not sure what to say.  I'm definitely overweight but I don't think there is anything he can do about it.  We'll see how it goes.

I also want to go through my work clothes and put aside most of them as I will no longer be working out of the office and need a much smaller wardrobe for that.  I think if I do it in sections, like pants one day, shirts another, that it won't turn into this big mess that I need to get overwhelmed with.

Well, I'd best get a move on if I'm going to get anything done before this afternoon is taken up by appointments.  Have a good day everyone!

Tuesday

 It's my first day on holiday where I'm actually by myself.  This is a rare and unusual thing and I don't have many plans.  I've got some laundry to finish up, I plan to watch as much of my DVR'd programming as I can to get that back to a reasonable level, and I think I will begin the purge of many of my work clothes.  Beyond that, I'm going to cuddle the kitten and read some books.

There was some fresh snow on the ground this morning.  It was nice and fluffy and clean looking.  I enjoy it, even though it's getting close to the end of the winter months and I'm glad to have the warmth back.  It's nicer than the transition brown and slop that currently is around.

Not too much else happening today.  I've been resisting the urge to check my work email. Life will and does go on without me there.  No matter how much I'd like to think otherwise, I'm replaceable, just like everyone else.

Hope you all have a good day!

A Weekend Alone and The Start Of Holidays

 This past weekend I took some time to myself and booked a hotel room and went away.  It seems like a very selfish thing to do but for my own headspace, I needed to do it.  I was starting to have daydreams about hoping I would get some sort of minor illness that required me to be hospitalized just to have a break. That's not a good place to be in.

I checked in Friday night and watched a movie I had on the list for a while.  The Martian.  I loved it.  I had thoroughly enjoyed the book but the movie was good as well.  I had stocked up on some snacks and my favourite hotel thing, which is to have a glass full of ice machine ice and pop.  I love how it's pure cold goodness.  I stayed up late and just enjoyed being on my own.

Even with no one to bother me I was up early on Saturday.  I went down to get my bagged breakfast, started reading a book while I at it and just sat and read for 2 hours.  I haven't indulged in a book and just wasted time for so long.  It was glorious. I then went out to Value Village for a leisurely wander.  I found a few books and a couple shirts and wasted some more time.  I grabbed lunch and doughnuts for a treat and headed back to the room.  

I'm Getting Some sleep but it's Not All That Much

 Last night Marshmallow was up a little longer and really wanted to play at stupid times of the night. So while I still got a good amount of sleep it was much interrupted.  I've also had  to start giving some taps on the nose to her as she loves to play but some of her playing is a bite that is not nice and playful.  It's a full on chomp that hurts!  Right no she is passed out on my shoulder after a quick playing session that has apparently worn her right out.

We Have A New Family Member!

 Yesterday we went for a drive and picked up a surprise for the girls.  Turns out that surprise was a kitten and she is adorable.  She has been christened Marshmallow and she's been the center of attention since she got here.  She is still a very little girl so her day consists of eat, play, sleep, repeat.  She is thankfully litter trained and is eating solid food so she's very busy all day alternating between the places she sleeps.  I was quite worried that last night was going to be a very long night but she slept mostly through and only woke me up twice, one of which was just early this morning.

Today was my first day back at work since I took holidays last week.  There were a bunch of emails to try to get through (not finished yet) and three meetings today that I had to attend and I was kept busy.  Then Bear is home from school because there was a positive case in her class so I'm trying to keep her where she needs to be.  Plus keeping a kitty out of trouble.  I've had my hands full and I'm ready for nap, even if I can't have one.

As of now I'm just getting supper in the oven and wrapping up the day for today.  I think I'll need a nap this evening just to keep going for the rest of the night.  No big plans for evening though, some TV watching and a shower later are all that are on the go.

There is Not Much Going On

 It's been a quiet few days in the house as we just settle in and enjoy the holidays.  We have done some cleaning and some TV watching and just general hanging out with each other.  There haven't been too many fights so that is nice.  

However, there are signs that people are getting bored and so I imagine that there will be fights and yelling to come.  Right now Bear is actually cleaning the doors of the house because she wants to clean something and I don't want to have to follow behind and do it over so this was a good compromise. 

Last night I gave in and went and got my nails done again.  I've had them off for almost a year now, but I was tired of them looking so short and breaking and just being ugly.  So I went to a place that was open late but I won't go back.  They cut me with the nail file and then told me I needed to relax my hand.  Not happy.  The nails were well-done thought and look nice.

In other news, Hubs misjudged a parking space and cracked the bumper on his car.  He's going to just order the part and fix it himself with helo from his friends so that is nice and keeps the costs down but it's still a pain.

I think that is all the news for the day.  Stay safe everyone!

This is Getting Old Now

 It was back to being -51C with the windchill this morning.  Hibs used my car to take the girls to school and to get to work as his clutch gets sticky when it's this cold out.  Only a few more days though and we should be past this.  I hope.  I know it's always expected here in January or February but more than 2 or three days and I'm over it.  

Work has fallen a bit behind today as there was a Town Hall this morning for two hours that meant I didn't do anything else while that was happening.  So I've got a bunch of emails that are piled up that I need to get through now.  Beyond that, work has been okay so far.

I've been trying to get myself into a good routine each day and i want to add some things to it but I'm fading and losing motivation and hope.  I need to stop feeling restless but bored.  That makes for a very bad combination.  

Car Has A New Screen

 I had to take the car in to the dealership yesterday and it took forever to get it back.  I finally called them at 4pm and they said it would be ready for the time I got there.  So I called the shuttle and away I went.  So far the screen is working but we'll have to hope we don't get any more cold weather that normally makes it go blank before next winter.

There is not much else going on here today.  The kids have a teacher appreciation day at school and they got to wear a hat which they will wave around at a certain time in the day.

Hubs had to switch out to a warmer jacket to do his waiting for the kids after school.  He's been freezing lately as they always seem to be slow getting out, our kids I mean, so it means standing in the weather for a good 15 minutes. When it's this cold that is a long wait.

I think I'm going to order myself some lunch today as I'm not feeling like making anything and also I like the variety of things I can order.

Stay Safe everyone!

Another Cold One Today!

 I had to get up slightly earlier than normal today as the car was to be taken in for a new console screen.  Basically, ever since I first got the car, six years ago, as soon as it gets cold out the screen goes blank and the steering wheel buttons don't work.  This is not really the most horrible thing that could happen, it's more of an inconvenience, but to have spent a crap load of money on the first new car I'd ever owned and to have something repeatedly break was demoralizing.  It's a quick fix for the dealership, I just need a hard reset of the battery, but I don't feel I should have to have that done.  So today they are replacing the console with a new one, in the hopes that this will no longer happen.  I had to drop it off for 8AM so I made sure to get up early to make the kids lunches and get myself into a presentable state to be seen by other humans.  Also it is still -40C here with the Windchill so I needed to make sure the car started.  Thankfully everything went as planned and I was shuttled home by twenty to nine to start the work day.

  My mood has been a little on the down side lately.  I start the day fine but by bedtime I am seriously cranky and want to have nothing to do with anyone.  I'm not sure why this is happening but I do want to change that as soon as I can.  I'm tired of crabbing at everyone and it's not fair to them that I take it out on them.  Maybe I need more chocolate in my life?

  I'm also feeling very tired of having to make meals everyday, all day, for months on end.  It doesn't stop me from doing it but I find I order lunch in for myself a bit more than is probably good for my wallet.  However it's such a simple little treat for myself that I have a hard time not justifying it.  I'll have to give it up for shortly but for the next little bit I think I'm going to keep it up.

  Well I should actually get to work and sort through my emails to see what needs to be dealt with today.  Not too much new has come in but I have lots that need following up on. 

  Until next time, stay safe everyone!

It's Still Cold Here!

 This morning it's very frosty here.  The kids still have school but it feels like minus 51 with the Windchill.  

  I just got a very scary phone call where they say my child is not in school this morning.  Well that's a surprise since she was dropped off there.  After a quick call to Hubs to make sure there was no car trouble, I called the school to check and she is there, it was just a mistake made by the teacher on attendance.  Doesn't make it any less scary though to have thought your child was somewhere and then to think maybe they are not.

  Today is a fairly booked day on the work schedule but I'm hoping things stay calm and I get through it all.  I'm working out my new path of housework and work work intersperced with actually standing up from the computer for a bit so we'll see how it goes.  It all depends on my calendar though and when the meetings are as to how much gets done and in what order.

  Not too much else is new here today so I'll sign off for the time being.

Stay safe everyone!

Back to A Normal Friday

 Hello All, 

  Bug is back at school today after the Covid case break they had.  It does seem a little odd that they wouldn't just finish out the week at home and begin again on Monday but they did the fourteen days and they are up so back they went.  I was looking forward to having the house to myself again but it's Hubs bi-weekly work video call so he's actually at home instead of at the other job.  On the bright side he is going out for lunch with his co-worker so I won't have to see or interact with him until about 2pm.  Probably for the best as we had words to start off the day and I don't actually want to have to talk to him right now.

  I'm feeling slightly better emotionally then I was a couple of days ago.  However, I'm still much too sensitive to tears and many things are setting me off.  Even things that quite literally have no impact on my life are making my cry.  It's very annoying.  I'm also on an off again period with my meds so that probably isn't helping things.  I need to book an appointment with my doctor anyways since I got the letter from the health agency saying I'm due for a pap test.  They are only required here once every three years as long as the test comes back clear.  

  I'm not feeling the items I have picked out for meals for the rest of the week.  Maybe tomorrow I'll make the roast but tonight is going to be pizza and I don't care.

I'm Not Feeling Well

 I'm really not feeling that well.  I had another of the time shift moments where I get violently ill this morning.  Add to that, I was already feeling off and tired and it's been a bad morning so far.

Bug is still home doing her schoolwork today.  Thankfully we've got it all figured out now and there are no more of the issues we had been dealing with logging in.  She did get a headache yesterday from staring at the screen for so long though so we need to make sure we take more breaks today.  

I also need to get food into the slow cooker shortly as that's what we are having for supper tonight.  It's supposed to be turkey breast but the store didn't have any so chicken breasts it is.  They will be all lemony and tangy and I think it will be good.

I don't think there is too much else going on today.  I will try again in a few days to see if I'm feeling better.

Stay Safe everyone!

February Already

 Today didn't start off the best of days.  I found out that an old co-worker of mine had passed away and that was really sad.  That gentleman was one of the nicest and most pleasant people I've ever worked with and to hear that he'd passed was a bit much.  I've not been feeling very happy lately anyways and that just added to that weight.

In other news, Bug is home from school for the week because there was a positive case in her class.  It doesn't mean too much is different but she can't go anywhere and I have a companion for my days at home.  Makes me stop and eat something once in a while.

Not too much else is new, I've still got a tonne of work to do and there is a never ending steam of emails that keep piling up.  I'm feeling like a failure on so many levels and I just want to sleep all the time.  I've also been having some tummy issues so I'm thinking there might be some long covid things going on thought the main nausea has stopped.

The First Post Of The New Year

 Well it's been a while since I've been here but I find myself coming back time and again to want to write down and share the things that happen in my life, even if no one is really reading them.  It lets me know that the struggles and joys that I have can both continue and change and that is helpful for me.  While I may not post all that regularly I do want to keep it up and hopefully become more consistent.  

  This last weekend was an exciting one for us as a family.  Bear had her birthday last week and as part of her present she requested that we go to a hotel with a pool and have a fun time.  We took ourselves out to a local hotel here in town and we got busy doing our things.  Once we checked in we then ran out to grab something to eat as it was close to supper time.  We brought that back to the hotel and ate quickly then got ready for our booked time in the pool.  We had a great time splashing about and going down the waterslide.  Once our time was up there we went back to the hotel room and the girls had showers and got all the chlorine off.  It was getting close to bedtime so the girls got ready and watched some TV until that time.  Bedtime definitely took a lot longer with all the excitement but they eventually got to sleep.  Hubs watched hockey and I had a bath and watched some shows on my tablet.  Then we also climbed into bed and had as restful of a night as we could with littles in the bed and us actually sharing a room.  In the morning, we got up and went for breakfast to Cora's, which is right in the parking lot of the hotel.  That was very good and everyone had more than enough to eat.  We tried to get another swim in the pool but it was all booked up so we just went and packed up the room and then got on our way.  We did stop at Value Village on the way home to lessen the disappointment of not getting that second swim in and the girls found a few things.

    The rest of the weekend was spend staying fairly close to home as it's very cold here.  We are sitting at -46 with the wind right now and that's about as warm as it's going to get today.  I did have to run out to get groceries but that was only an hour and I was happy to get back home and into the house.

    Work has been crazy.  I am not getting any further ahead and there are just millions of questions and meetings and three different projects on the go so I keep fumbling along.  I am still feeling like I'm not getting the support I need but I don't know what to do about it.  I don't want to complain and have people think that I'm not capable but I also don't want to let things slide and then get into trouble for not completing a job.

    Today the kids are home from school as it's a Teacher Development day so they have been playing while I work.  Right now all is quiet as they are on the computer and tablet so I have an hour where there will be no noise or requests for food. :)

Stay warm and safe everyone!