Call with the Doctor

 I had my quick intro call with the doctor yesterday and it was good, if emotional.

He asked questions about why I'm looking to have this done and what was the trigger point for it, which were very difficult to answer without breaking down.  He explained a little about the surgery and the aftercare that they provide.  I'm sad that I didn't make it with the financing option so it's going to be a long slog to get this done but I'm still slightly hopeful that I can make it work at some point.  

I really want to do this, I need to do this to get on with life and I keep dreaming that it's done and how my life will be better.  I then remember that I can't afford to have the non-provincial option and break down but I'm not giving up hope.  There has got to be a way.

Almost There

 Well I finally received the call about the financing late yesterday afternoon.  While I was unable to get the full amount that I need to have, they did give me a good portion of it so that with the savings I have I only need a bit more to make this a reality.  It's going to take me a few months to save the rest up, which means that I can't book the surgery as soon as I'd like but the important thing I'm trying to remember is that it's going to happen and I can get there.  

I still feel a bit down that I have to wait longer than the April dates they are booking into right now.  It's hard to know that something good is possible but you have to wait for it.  I need to be disciplined and save as much as I can to make this happen quicker.  Maybe I'll be lucky and get a tax refund and that can help.  

 

A Waiting Game

 Well, I'm still waiting to hear if the funding I requested for the surgery will come through or not.  If it doesn't I'm stuck in a hard place where I want and love the option to get the surgery done privatly but I can't afford it and I either sell my car to pay for it or wait the three plus years to have the surgery done for free in my province on the healthcare plan.  I'm a little down today as I wait for this information because I feel that I will probably be denied and I had let myself have the glimmer of hope that things would work out and I could almost see the new me and that's slipping away.  Not much else to say about it, just waiting and waiting and hoping for the best.