Week of January 23rd

 Not too much happening today, kids are off school so I'm trying to balance working and being in meetings with requests and yelling of issues between children.  

I spent some time last night reading a gastric sleeve cookbook.  They are just something I'm doing to prepare for the time when it will be a requirement and also they give good information about what to expect before, during, and after the surgery.  I do like that they mention to go easy on yourself, not compare your journey and weight loss to others, and that you need to find support, whether that is from your family or others to keep you on the path.  This specific one also detailed not rushing out to buy a new wardrobe immediately as your lifestyle may change as well and you might need more exercise clothes than you expect or maybe you take up another sport and need things for that.  I can see how suddenly (what would seem sudden at least) you lose a significant amount of weight and want to show that off but that may not be where you stay or what you need at that time.  I'm also looking at these books to see if once things are more settled after the surgery there are recipes that work for the whole family so I don't have to cook twice forever.  

Wednesday was a pretty plain day.  I have a cold so I'm wanting to sleep more but of course I have work so that doesn't happen.  I got the cold because Bear wanted to go to Rucker's for her birthday and of course the kids touched all the things and then touched me and here we are.  Bug has a bit of a cold as well so she's coughing in the night.  Poor thing.  I read another cookbook and it was horrible.  There were spelling and grammar mistakes, almost as if it had been translated from another language and poorly done at that.  I'm still deciding if I should leave a poor review on Amazon or just don't bother.

Maybe This Time I'll Stick Around

 It's been a while since I've posted as there is really nothing in my life that is too exciting and I wasn't finding the time to get into here.  I've decided to start up again and while not much has changed I'm wanting to try.

Today is Bear's birthday and I'm happy and sad all at once.  She's such a great little girl but she's growing up so quickly and I'm trying to remember to enjoy the time with her and make time to be with her when she asks.  She was very excited this morning and left for school in a great mood.  Her and Bug even managed to not get into a screaming match before leaving, which is always a good thing.  

Some news that I plan to write about in the future as well is the fact that I've asked to be referred to the Bariatric Surgery program here in the province.  There is quite a waiting list but I'm so tired of being fat and trying things that don't work or stick that I've decided that drastic measures are needed.  I have to say though that my doctor wasn't very supportive of the decision and only grudgingly agreed to send the referral.  He also then couldn't get me out of the office fast enough after that so I feel bad that I've let him down but I also feel somewhat upset that he hasn't made any recommendations for getting me into better health either, just upping my blood pressure pill dose and sending me on my way.  I'm a little scared of all the changes that will be required but I think I'm in a place where I'm ready for this.  I want the person I see in the mirror to reflect the person that everyone else sees and right now they are not the same.  There are a lot of steps beforehand with the program that have to be followed and completed or they kick you out so dedication is definitely required.  I'll keep posting as things develop with that.

Hope you all have a great weekend!!