New Pains

As I was laying in bed last night the outside of my right leg started to tingle.  I didn't really think anything of it but when I woke up at about 2:30am it felt hot and tight so I touched it.  It created a burning pain that almost caused me to cry out.  After walking a bit and touching it some more the pain past and I want back to bed.  At 6am the same thing happened.  This time I called the Healthline and spoke with a nurse.  She advised me to see a doctor soon as there was a slim chance it was a blood clot but that I didn't need to go to emergency or anything.  After getting everyone up and dressed and fed I took myself to the medi clinic.  I took a book because you never know but was seen in about twenty minutes.  They have diagnosed that it's a type of nerve pain and while it normally causes numbness instead of the pain I got, it's harmless and should fade soon.  If I get other symptoms or it's still hanging around after two weeks I'm to see my family doctor.

Bug won her game last night.  It was good to have Grandma and Uncle there and she managed to get a goal as well.  Bear is now waiting for Sunday so she can show off her skills to them then. 

We are forecast thunderstorms and rain for the rest of the week.  Honestly we need it and I hope it materializes. 

Bear is having a sprinkler day at school today.  She was very excited this morning and picked out the perfect bathing suit to romp around in.

A Rough Night

It was not a great evening last night.  It started off okay as I managed to sneak out of work fifteen minutes early and make it home with enough time to feed the children.  That's about where the good stopped.  No one had their soccer stuff organized and I had to run around everywhere to find all the bits.  Then we made it to soccer and halfway through bear had to use the washroom.  Normally the school is open near where they play but not yesterday.  So we drove to the closest convenience store, no public washrooms there.  We then drove to a nearby gas station and thankfully they had a toilet.  We then had to go to Bug's soccer practice and that was okay.  Got home, got everyone in bed and then Hubs decided to start a fight that lasted for an hour and a half.  I'm just done with it,.  I don't even care anymore.  Once I made it to bed Bug had a nightmare so climbed in with me and twice Bear was up because she couldn't sleep.  Add to that the stupid mask and it was a bad night.  I'm tired today and still mad and don't want to have to actually adult at all.

We have Bug's soccer game tonight, have to remember the bug spray as last week it got a little bad near the end. 

Also happening to day is my brother coming into town.  He's here for Bug's Communion but is taking a week to just hang out.  As I haven't seen him since Xmas it'll be nice to have him around.  The girls are quite excited too.  They have also found out that they will be going there for almost two weeks in July to stay and can't wait.

I'm Still Tired

After a weekend of not doing much it's back to work today. 

Saturday was a very lazy day of going to the library and that was all.  Bear and I did plant some more things into the garden but since most of my seeds are old i have very little faith that we are going to get much of a harvest.  We added some cucumber and cantaloupe.  I don't even know if cantaloupe grows here.  Thankfully we had a nice rain shower overnight so things got a good soaking and now we hope for the best.

Sunday I stayed in bed reading for most of the morning.  After a thrilling lunch of macaroni and cheese Bear and I went to the grocery store and did our weekly shop.  We then hit up a few dollar stores as my mom needed a cable for her TV.  Bear was very excited to purchase her own item at the grocery.  She really wanted to help me pay for everything but it was simply an easier task to let her pick out one thing that she wanted and then have her hand over her money.  In the evening Hubs had hockey and I binged Double Shot at Love.  That is some good trash TV.  I've also just begun watching Lucifer on Netflix so that should keep me busy for a good month as I only watch one episode a day and there are four seasons to get through.

I'm still not getting a restful sleep with my machine.  It keeps me up and wakes me up as it blows on my eyes if the mask slips.  I'm hoping things will eventually settle down because I'm feeling just as bad as I was before only now I guess there is no snoring to listen to.

It's Been A Week

I'm so very glad it's Friday.  This week has felt very long and I'm happy to see the back of it.

Yesterday I was out and about with the girls on a field trip.  We went with the school to a local park.  It's nice that we had the place booked for ourselves as it allowed the kids to not have to fight hoards of other kids for the attractions.  There is a Ferris wheel, a carousel and and train that goes round the park.  Once we were done our time on those we had a picnic lunch and then the kids were set loose on the playground and spray park.  By this time I realized that we were not the only group there.  There must have been 300-400 children and minders there.  It was absolutely crazy and there were many moments where I had no clue where the children were.  Thankfully I had the snacks and water bottles so they returned at regular intervals to fuel up.  The weather was great as well.  It was hot but slightly overcast so no raging sunburn for me.  The kids were properly slathered in sunscreen.

I got my very own CPAP machine yesterday as well.  The loaner was returned and the statistics checked.  After using the machine for a week it was determined that my apneas were reduced to 0.3 an hour and I was suffering less time awake then before.  The new machine is set at a rate of 11 and I have to send in my chip in a month to see if everything is good going forward.  It was suggested that I go for another mask type as my mouth is staying closed and maybe it would afford me better success on side sleeping.

Last night we also had rehearsal for Bug's First Communion.  Thankfully Father kept it brief as everyone just wanted to get home and watch the Raptor's game.  There was lots of information but only a few things that Bug herself has to remember and she is feeling good about those.  We actually get the Bishop performing the service so it should be memorable.

Not much else is going on today.  I think I'll switch my bath to tonight since I didn't get one last night.  I also managed to finish a book yesterday so happy about that.

It's Wednesday

Another rainy morning today.  I managed to get between the rains on my walk to work but I had the umbrella handy just in case.  It's quite dark and grey out today and if the forecast can be believed, this is the rest of our week.  I'm hoping for a nicer day tomorrow though as the kids and I are off on a field trip and they are supposed to play in the spray park.  The whole trip will be pretty sad if it gets rained on though. 

Bug had a great soccer game last night.  We had about 4 drops of rain and beyond that it was beautiful.  The bugs are beginning to appear though so we need to remember bug spray to sit in these parks.  Bear likes the park we've been at lately because there is a playground nearby that she can hang out at and not be bored watching her sister play for an hour. 

I'm still very tired from the CPAP machine.  I go in tomorrow for the followup appointment and we'll see what they say about the usage.  I managed to get some sleep on my side last night so that's at least a bonus.  I'm going to need a large amount of naps to make this up and I have no days off booked to make that happen. 

Rest of the day should just be a normal day here.  No activities tonight and work doesn't look too awful so I think it'll all be okay.

Have a good one!

Another Fight

Once again this morning there was a fight between Hubs and myself.  This is a fairly common occurrence brought on by his lack of pain tolerance and my lack of patience with his lack of pain tolerance.  I feel that he needs to begin to accept that he may have chronic pain for the rest of his life and not have to express it and moan out loud and be miserable every morning.  He thinks he's handling it well and needs to complain about it on a daily basis.  The end result is he is grumpy and I get annoyed he's grumpy and then we snap at each other.  Today it was because he felt I should have done more to straighten the house up before the window guys came.  However he also was home last night and just sat on the couch watching the Raptors so this can't be all my fault.  I also think the people coming are not going to care if things are not perfectly cleaned up.  They are there to measure windows, not pass judgement on the house. 

I'm very over the sleep mask for the CPAP machine.  I can't get a restful night with that thing on my face.  If I lay on my back the whole time, my back hurts and I'm uncomfortable.  I also wake up with a stiff neck.  If I try to lay on my side the mask moves and it leaks air out.  So that is bad.  I can't lay on my stomach at all, and that is my preferred method of sleeping.  I think I'm getting less sleep than I was before.  I hate all of it.  I did go back to the store to see if there was another mask type that would work better for me but they said that this was going to be the best option and that some leakage is okay.  It may seem like a lot but it may be less than I think it is.

Soccer again tonight.  Both girls were out last night and we braved the rain that happened.  It did stop in time for Bug's practice but it was cool and a little windy.  There is a chance of more rain today and maybe her game will get cancelled.  I could use some time at home to relax.

Well I'd best get to work, have a good day.

Morning Rain

Woke up to the lovely sound of rain this morning.  I'm not sure how long it had been happening but it had stopped by the time I was ready to go to work.  I kept my umbrella handy just in case though as arriving to work sopping wet is not the best way to start the day.

Both girls are excited for today.  It's the Primary Play Day at school and it kicks off with a hot dog lunch before a wide variety of games are set to be played in the park.  Bear has no school today but she and Grandma are going to go and have some fun. 

It's the last day of the final round of testing of our new system here at work.  We are finishing off with a pizza lunch.  I think the week has gone well and lots of little things were found to ask questions on and make slight fixes to.  I thankfully did not have to spend a lot of my time actually in the lab.  I'd have lost my mind for sure then.

We got a call back from our window installers last night.  The issues we are having are covered by warranty and they will be replacing all the defective windows.  This is very exciting as they are only a few years old and we were quite disappointed to have them fogging up between the panes.

Hubs also got a call yesterday to go for a job interview.  It's with the City so if he can get on that would be nice.  There are good benefits and there is lots of chances to move around within the jobs there so he shouldn't get too bored with any one thing.

Hope you all are having a lovely day.

A Great Time

Last night we had a Team Building event for my work.  We went to a place that offers escape rooms, bocci ball, and axe throwing.  There was good food in the form of pulled pork and roasted potatoes, salads, and cake for dessert.  If you wanted an adult beverage, those were on you to purchase yourself but pop was included.  We were randomly divided into six teams and sent off into our rooms to try and get out before time ran out.  My team managed to make it with about a minute forty left on the clock.  It turned out that we were the only team to make an escape so we got the prize for fasted escape, which was a $10 gift card for each of us.  We then got to try our hand at the axe throwing.  That was really fun and I was able to be successful at both overhand throwing of large and small axes.  I just couldn't get the right motion for underhand. 

I also had to pick up my sleep apnea machine yesterday.  I'm still on a learning machine so it automatically adjusts to various settings throughout the night.  After a week of this I will get my own machine and it will have just one setting that is customized for my needs.  Last night did not go well as I had to sleep in my back and I found the noise of the breathing to be very loud.  I normally sleep with my good ear down so I can't hear things and that is not possible with this apparatus.  I'm hoping it was just the getting use to it that was causing the issues because if not, this is not going to be a sustainable venture. 

It's supposed to rain here today which will be nice.  I'll get a break from watering the flowers and garden.  I remembered my umbrella for work so I can make it back to the car nice and dry if it happens to be coming  down at the end of the day. 

After supper Bug and I will have to head out and grab a present for a birthday party she has this weekend.  They only sent out the notifications on Tuesday and the party is Saturday.  Not much time to get ourselves together.

Well I suppose I should stop this and actually do some work today.  Enjoy the day where ever you are.

It's Warm Here

We had a lovely evening yesterday.  Both girls had soccer and I stopped for a Slurpee beforehand so I got to enjoy the sunshine for an hour and sip away while watching Bug run back and forth.  She has a game tonight so we will be out again, even though it is not quite as warm as it was yesterday. 

Things are not settling down here at work. We keep finding new things to give me stress.  No matter how hard I try to not take on all of the things, I still feel responsible and so it's getting me more worked up then maybe it needs to.  It's not my fault this project has become my baby. :)

My knee is feeling better though.  I was grateful for the lessening of pain for sure yesterday as the elevators were out at work and I had to climb down three flights of stairs.  It was a little slow going but I made it out.

Today so far has been about putting out fires and making sure the testers we have in for the project are getting the answers they need.  If that's how it stays then things should be golden.

Have a good day.

Back At It

Well it's back to being Monday and things are in their normal routine. 

We had a good weekend with not too much going on.  Saturday the girls and I went to the library, Value VILLAGE, out for lunch, and then hit up some garage sales on the way home.  THERE was a big sale at the church and we hit the timing right so that you could by a bag for $5 and whatever you could fit in it was yours.  WE bought mostly books but the girls also found some clothes and a couple of stuffies.

Sunday was a stay home kinda day.  I Went out and got groceries and then we planted some carrots in the little garden patch.  The kids played in the sprinkler for a few hours and then proceeded to drive each other crazy for the rest of the day.

Today at work is the first day where we are going to have a few people in from outside to do testing.  It Should be an experience and hopefully they like the program we have spent the last two years developing. 

WELL it's almost lunch time so I guess I should see what the cafeteria is serving up.

Have a good day!

It's Friday

We have gone from 30 degree days for most of the week to being only a high of 22 today.  We also have smoke that has rolled in from the Alberta fires and it makes for a rather gloomy day.  I am also allergic to smoke so my nose has been plugged and I keep sneezing.  Hopefully it will be a little windy and blow this all away soon.

Tonight the girls have swimming lessons.  Bug is also excited because it is pizza lunch day at school and they are selling freezies. Very fun day to be had.

Not much else is really going on here.  Can't think of what to say so I guess that's all for now.

Have a great weekend everyone.

Normal Thursday

I don't know that there is anything going on today. 

It's my bosses birthday but she has requested I forgo the usual and not make a big deal out of it.  SO I haven't.  I was going to take her for lunch but she has a meeting so I can' t do that even.  I feel bad and that I should have made more of an effort.  I think she secretly likes it.

I had an appointment with the shrink today.  As usual  it was very quick.  He refills my prescriptions and books me another appointment and I'm on my way.  I'm not sure if this is normal behavior.  I guess I expected it to be more like the movies where you talk and analyze and that's not him.  I didn't have the heart to tell him I've been off my pills lately because I can't be bothered to take them.  I really should get myself back to being stable again.  Maybe it would make me less stressed.

No activities tonight.  We will just enjoy the sunshine and maybe run through the sprinkler.

Middle Of The Week

Finally today is a free evening to not have to rush about and get things done.  We've had soccer for two nights and we missed Bug's practice because I forgot about it. There are so many things going on in school as it winds down that  I can't remember everything.  My coping skills are fading.

Bug has had a cough for four days now.  It's horrible and she keeps bringing up mucus and can't sleep and eventually asks for me to lay with her.  I do but then I get little sleep and now I have a cold as well and am tired.  My knee is still bothering me and I haven't heard back from the doctor about the results of my ultrasound.  Going down stairs is almost impossible at this point and I end up close to tears from the pain.  I hope they can give me some type of a diagnosis so there is a plan forward.

Hubs has been working hard at training.  There are lots of little steps that are needed for safety reasons that have to be memorized and that is the part he has been studying at home for the last few nights.

Work has been still been causing me stress.  I am feeling discouraged and let down and am not in the right frame of mind to be joyful about things right now.  I feel that I have too much work and cannot get myself to do what needs to happen around what is being thrown at me daily.  It has been a grind since I came back to work after my surgery and it hasn't stopped. 

I'm sorry for being so negative but I have little to be happy about right now.

Pain in the.......Knee

My knee hurts!

I have done nothing to it but it's hurting anyways.  It has been sore since Wednesday of last week and I finally gave in yesterday and went to the Medi-Clinic.  After a long wait during which I read an entire book, I got into see the doctor.  He sent me for X-Rays but they came back fine.  I am off later this morning to get an ultrasound done to see if there is some soft tissue damage that has occurred.  Hopefully they can see something because if we have a fire at work I'm going to be waving from the window at the fireman to rescue me.  Stairs are just not an option.  I can hobble up or down one or two but many requires a very slow pace and some choice words.

Hubs started his training for his new job today.  I am sure it's going fine.  He's a quick learner.  I'm glad he has found something at least to start with and even if we continue to look for other things at least it's work and he can stress a little less.

Bear has soccer again tonight.  She originally wasn't impressed that it was so close together from her last game but seems to be over that.  She came and snuggled me in bed last night, which was nice.  She is a little furnace though, holy crap.  You don't need covers if you sleep with her beside you. 

Bug has a bit of a cough but hopefully we are on the downward swing of that.  She was feeling pretty bad on Saturday but yesterday was okay and this morning there was lots of coughing but less of the phlegm.

Work is getting to me and I'll be happy to get through this week without losing my mind.  I just have to remember that it's not my circus and I didn't train the monkeys.  That should be easy, right??

Have a good day!!

Blowing Up

Things were not pretty this morning.  I got upset at Hubs and he blew back at me and it was just unpleasant all around.  He's down in the dumps and I get that but not everything is the end of the world.  I'm just frustrated with his attitude and that he doesn't seem to think any of this is affecting me.  He has no idea and I can't tell him because he just makes it all about him.  It might be a long weekend.

Today is a busy day.  Bug was off on a filed trip with Grandma for school.  We have swimming lessons after supper and then Bear has soccer right after.  It's a two cars going in separate places kind of day.

Work is going okay but there is a bunch of little things that are needing to happen or that keep coming up and that is keeping me on my toes.  I thought that with the move to the new desk location I would actually take my breaks since I'm just down the hall from the break room but in the month-ish I've been here I haven't set foot in it once. 

Not much else to talk about really today. 

I'm Stressed

I've reached a point in the last few days where I am getting ready to break.  I have so much stress coming at me from all angles of life that I don't know what to do.  My insomnia ha returned and once I wake up in the night my brain turns on and I'm up for hours.  I'm also eating my feelings so any hope of losing weight has gone out the window.

Work is getting me worked up because we are fast closing in on our deadline for a project and no one has any answers to questions.  It also seems like there is not a definite plan as to how things are going to happen and that doesn't work for me.  I like things in neat little rows, with defined edges and a way through from beginning to end.  That is not how everyone else is rolling on this project I guess.  I'm becoming very short with people and have no patience for anyone who decides to try to prove a point I know is incorrect.  It might be a long two months.

Home has me upset because while Hubs has found part time work he'll still need to get something else to cover the rest of the bills that he pays each month.  He's had no call backs from any of the other resumes he's sent out and is beginning to get very down about life.  Add to that his continuing hip pain and he's not in the greatest of moods most of the time.  I am being very supportive of all his endevours but when confronted with so much negativity it's hard to keep a chipper face on. 

Thankfully tonight is another evening with nothing going on so we can maybe relax and get through some of our DVR'd shows.  Maybe even better Hubs will get a call about a job and we can all get back to normal and stop worrying about things. 

Here's hoping.

Back To Work

Well it's Tuesday and that means back to work after the long weekend here.

We spent part of Saturday out looking for treasures at garage sales. The girls found a few things, I came away with only one book.  It's a giant coffee table book from the 80's on the Royal Family.  I think it's a great find, Hubs couldn't believe I bought it. :)

On Sunday I got groceries with Bear and then Bug had a birthday party for the whole afternoon.  She was quite tired once she got home because they had spent almost the whole time on the trampoline and while there was food there, she barely ate any of it.  Having too much fun to pause for anything.

Monday was a fairly lazy day.  I should have done lots of things but lazed about watching Amazon Prime for the morning while the rest of the family went to watch the Roughriders Practice.  I then spent part of the afternoon planting flowers in the beds in the front yard.  Still need to plant the back beds and the garden but at least the walk up looks pretty. 

I didn't sleep well last night, having my brain turn on at 3:30 this morning and not having much luck falling back asleep quickly.  I think I'm going to be a bit grumpy and that's never a good thing. 

Bug has soccer tonight, thankfully at 6pm so she won't be super tired afterwards.  I think that is all for the plans of the day besides making it through work.

Have a good one!

A Busy Few Days

I've had no time for anything the last three days.  I was in a group training put on by my office to help me do my job.  I've been in the position I am for just over two years and this training explained what I'm supposed to be doing.  It would have been nice to get it earlier but it was helpful in explaining how to do certain things that I should know how to do.  Now I just need to clear the backlog of emails and jobs I should have been doing for those days.  It's going to be a tough day since it's also a long weekend here coming up so I just want to relax and not think about actual work at all.

We have no plans for this weekend.  We'll hang out at home and maybe do some yard work.  I have to get groceries one day.  That's really about it.  Maybe we can convince the kids to actually sleep in a little and not get up at 6:30 one day.  They are off school today and it didn't work this morning but there is always hope.

Hubs is still looking for a new job.  It's been a week since he quit so it's still quite new but I know one of the resumes he's putting out will catch someones eye.  It's pretty tough on him to be going through this but he's got lots out there so far and is continually submitting more.  It'll happen in time.

Well back to work for me I guess.  Here's hoping everyone has a great day!

I saw THE movie

Last night a friend and I went and saw Avengers:Endgame.  It was her third time seeing it and my first.  I really enjoyed it and there was lots of flipping between emotions.  There were some amazing fight scenes and then it would switch to a crazy hear-wrenching moment that left me with tears streaming down my face.  This is not actually too surprising since I tend to cry at some point in every movie but it was a movie that made you have all the feels.

The girls have swimming lessons tonight.  I had worked late last Friday and missed them so I will probably go and watch them tonight.  Bear refuses to put her face in the water so that makes for an interesting class.  Bug loves it and would happily stay in the water all day.  It's taken her a few tries in the level she's at to reach some of the distance swims required but I think she'll pass it this time. 

It has been a very stressful week.  Beyond all the issues at work with getting a project back on track there are some home issues rearing up as well.  Needless to say I'm barely keeping my head up and really want to have a few days where I have nothing to worry about.  I don't see that happening for at least a few weeks though so I may have to take up drinking or something to get through it.

Hope all is well in your world.

Street Sweeping Adventures

This morning started off with me running outside in my bare feet to move my car.  They are sweeping my street to day to remove the buildup of gravel from the winter and you are supposed to be off the street by 7am.  I didn't expect them to be prompt and since I leave for work at 7:30 I thought I would be okay.  Turns out they were ticketing cars right from 7.  I managed to get myself off the street and onto the lawn before that happened and then just left for work early.  Excitement all around.

Bug's soccer game went well last night.  It was her first time playing ever and she managed to do well and even got a goal.  She was very proud of herself.  I on the other hand was freezing the whole game.  The sun was going down and the wind came up and it was not the most pleasant time to be sitting outdoors for an hour.  Hopefully by next week the weather will have smartened up and we can enjoy being outdoors.

I'm utterly exhausted.  I have been getting enough sleep but there is just so much added stress in my life right now that I'm at a heightened state and don't relax.  Add in little things that happen in everyday life and it's getting to be too much.  At least I have plans for a few fun things in the next few days that will take my mind off.

Soccer Again

We had Bear's first soccer game of the outdoor season yesterday evening.  It was good with lots of entertainment from small children falling over.  Repeatedly.  It did get a little chilly by the end of it as May hasn't come in very warm yet.  Today we have Bug's first game and it's at an even later start time so I'll be bringing the blankets to stay warm on the sidelines.  As far as I know she doesn't have a coach yet so that's not so good but the game is going on regardless.

I'm still stressing about work.  It's going to be a long week of getting things to where they need to be and I'm feeling like the lynch pin in the center holding it all together.  Part of that is just my own pressure because this project is my baby and some of it is real.  I don't feel that I personally got much accomplished yesterday but the team did and there is clear movement forward. 

I am still struggling with the snacking in the evenings.  Yesterday I didn't have a chance to eat supper as I worked and then we had to get ready to go to soccer right away after I got home.  As a result of that I had a Slurpee and then binged on crap from the cupboards in the evening.  Cue the purge that follows that and there we sit for the evening.  If I could just cut that out I would be on my way to being successful I think. 

It's supposed to be a beautiful day here today so I'm hoping to at least step outside and enjoy it briefly.

Have a good one!

Struggling

It wasn't really a great weekend at all on the diet front.  I was feeling very down about myself and ended up in a rather lengthy binge/purge session.  Which makes me feel worse and just becomes a big black hole of self pity and loathing.  I have been a purger for so many years now that it is an almost impossible habit to break.  I think I started when  I was 16 so I've been at it on and off for 23 years.

Beyond the giant fail in that way, the weekend was just okay.  I was in a miserable mood for most of it and just wanted to be left alone.  That is not something that is possible when you have a family so I just spent lots of time being very quiet.  We did manage to have some fun all together so that was nice.  We went to Value Village to drop off a bunch of boxes of things we no longer need or want in the house.  We managed to come home with only a few books and some work clothes for me so that was nice too.  We then all went as a family to get groceries.  This is never a good plan as the Hubs adds many things to the basket that are not on the list and blows the budget. 

I have been feeling very stressed out at work to top it all off.  We have a tight schedule for this project we are working on and it's getting close to not working out.  There is plenty of pressure from the higher ups to make it work out and I take plenty of that onto myself as this is my pet project.  I know I cannot be responsible for the whole thing but I feel that it's on my shoulders and it's working me up.

Top all of that off with Hubs job unhappiness and resulting search for new work and I am just a ball of nerves. 

Tonight we have soccer for Bear and she is very excited.  Hopefully we can find the field without too much hassle.  It's a new one for us and should be near our house but I have never been there before.

It Wasn't A Great Night

So I basically failed on the first day of my eating plan.  I had managed to stay under calorie budget right up until the time the Hubs asked if I wanted to have a Salted Caramel Cake.  I should have said no but I was hungry and had had a long evening with some issues at the post office and I gave in.  So needless to say I ended up over budget.  I'm going to try again today but I've started badly so we'll see how close we can keep it.  The problem is that I'm not at the stage where I'm feeling less hungry yet (it has only been one day) so I want to eat all the things.  I did do really well with not snacking yesterday thought until the cake.  

In other news, I had to switch desks at work.  They are exactly the same size and layout but on a different floor.  So far it's very quiet up here and I'm not sure if I like it.  The good part is that I'm finally on the floor with the break room so I might actually start taking them.  I have a tendency to just work right through and not bother with the hassle.

The girls are supposed to start soccer net week and we haven't received a schedule yet.  This doesn't bode well for the season.  It is a short one of only two months but it's all outside and the weather hasn't realized it's Spring here yet.  Hopefully this gets sorted out quickly.

Have a good one!

It 's the Beginning

Today I have started the first day of my weight loss journey for the millionth time.  I'm hoping this is the time that I can make it happen though.  I'm at a point where I don't even look at myself below the neck and I hate it.  I forgot to weigh myself this morning but the last time I did I was 274lbs.  That number is just too high.  There are beginning to be to many things I can't do easily like run with the girls or climb many stairs and it's scary.  The girls will also say things like "Why are you so big Mommy?" and they don't realize how much that hurts.  They don't mean to make me upset but they do. 

I've decided to just control what goes into my mouth as a start and then I plan to add some exercise in later.  I'm using the Lose It! app to track my food and calories.  I'm hoping that the pain of having to enter items will keep me from snacking and eating just because. 

Wish me luck!

Hello!

Hi all,

This is not my first blog but it is my new blog where I plan to talk about life with two littles, maybe some subscription box reviews, my weight (and hopeful loss of it), and just life in general.

Today has not started out as the greatest day.  The kids kept me up last night and so this morning I am tired and have a headache.  I am back for day two of returning to work as I was off after having surgery or three weeks.  We have lots to do and in the middle of this I have to relocate my desk as there has been an office shuffle.  I'm just not in the mood to do this today.

Since I'm procrastinating and writing this at work I should probably stop for now but I look forward to sharing things with all of you and hope you enjoy reading about my little life here in the Prairies.

Talk soon!